Evolution

I'm leaving, not on a Concord airplane but on the wings of time and i dont know if i'll be back again.i really dont want to come back and if it happens i dont,i want you to be happy for me..I've been trying for a long time and now  i think i'm gradually evolving over conscious hate,conscious fear and injustice to fellow humans.. Everyday i wake, i hope and pray that i be a better person than i was yesterday,that my deeds and ways may be in harmony with the universal plan of mother nature.In the midst of trying to grow, thoughts of hate, fear(known and unknown) and injustice try to pull me down everyday thus my mind is always in a constant fight between good and bad,right and wrong,wants and needs.Daughters of eve and money did not make things easier also.After much contemplation and meditation i decided it was time to take the middle way(Lobsang Rampa),time to take things as they come,never giving more value to anything
or anyone than they deserve.Then, Moments of peace,serenity and tranquility started to seep in.Some say it is a nonchalant way of living,some call it an unemotional way....i call it living life in a free style where the sole purpose is to sleep,eat,wake,appreciate mother nature for her mercies and to be good to your fellow man..
Though am still at the early stage of this great evolution which is self study and discovery i know i have a lot of challenges ahead among which(if not the greatest)is temptation but its always easier to take on difficulties when you know what they are and you are anticipating them.The path may be rough and i might make mistakes my friend but i'll overcome them ..Laws of nature would always hold whether we like it or not. An ardent student i intend to be and great lessons i intend to learn...No more do i want to hate any man though i could get angry once in a while, no more do i want to fear anything or anyone except the most merciful, no more do i want to judge no one for its an exclusive right of the greatest judge, no more do i want to speak ill of any man with bad intent, no more do i want vengeance living in my heart,no more do i want to entertain any dark tots or hold any ill feelings in my mind except against the evil ones.....these are essentially my new life resolutions and i pray to God to please hold me down in his mercy, blessings and guidance so that the great serpent of the old does not get the best of me during this course of evolution. amin.