Evolution

I'm leaving, not on a Concord airplane but on the wings of time and i dont know if i'll be back again.i really dont want to come back and if it happens i dont,i want you to be happy for me..I've been trying for a long time and now  i think i'm gradually evolving over conscious hate,conscious fear and injustice to fellow humans.. Everyday i wake, i hope and pray that i be a better person than i was yesterday,that my deeds and ways may be in harmony with the universal plan of mother nature.In the midst of trying to grow, thoughts of hate, fear(known and unknown) and injustice try to pull me down everyday thus my mind is always in a constant fight between good and bad,right and wrong,wants and needs.Daughters of eve and money did not make things easier also.After much contemplation and meditation i decided it was time to take the middle way(Lobsang Rampa),time to take things as they come,never giving more value to anything
or anyone than they deserve.Then, Moments of peace,serenity and tranquility started to seep in.Some say it is a nonchalant way of living,some call it an unemotional way....i call it living life in a free style where the sole purpose is to sleep,eat,wake,appreciate mother nature for her mercies and to be good to your fellow man..
Though am still at the early stage of this great evolution which is self study and discovery i know i have a lot of challenges ahead among which(if not the greatest)is temptation but its always easier to take on difficulties when you know what they are and you are anticipating them.The path may be rough and i might make mistakes my friend but i'll overcome them ..Laws of nature would always hold whether we like it or not. An ardent student i intend to be and great lessons i intend to learn...No more do i want to hate any man though i could get angry once in a while, no more do i want to fear anything or anyone except the most merciful, no more do i want to judge no one for its an exclusive right of the greatest judge, no more do i want to speak ill of any man with bad intent, no more do i want vengeance living in my heart,no more do i want to entertain any dark tots or hold any ill feelings in my mind except against the evil ones.....these are essentially my new life resolutions and i pray to God to please hold me down in his mercy, blessings and guidance so that the great serpent of the old does not get the best of me during this course of evolution. amin.

mummy's just a little girl

As i was preparing to leave the house for the day's hustle i went to wake my kid sister so she could get me something to eat before leaving home.i had hardly left her door when my old woman answered from her own room telling me to go and get married and that i cant turn her daughter to my cook.some moments later she and my sister were seriously on my case laughing at me and teasing me i should tell them whats wrong and why i've not brought a single girl home,black,white or albino.i just smiled and left them; thinking in my mind, little do this people know, if they did, they would have being treating me like a king,with passion and respect but they dont.i looked back and remembered how many relationships i have had in the past and how they all ended.i thought about how many of them ended in less than 3wks that it began..like 80%.some left on religious ground and i think i initiated the break with 1.The next question is why were they like that?like i said earlier i lost some to religious blah blah and had to free myself from one.The rest of this poor boy's relationships were lost to  "big pimping" brothers.my tough luck 'cos my father wont just make it on time.wetin i for do now?Surprisingly and sincerely i do not have an atom of beef or grudge against any of them 'cause if it had been my sister too i woulda told her "now is the future girl go with the guy that has it" rather than one boy preaching about hope in the future.But on the contrary i saw the whole thing from a different perspective, i looked at it like i'm a guy with a high level of taste for me to be loosing my relationship to more fly brothers.what would i have done if i had lost to a fellow "legedez benzer" like me? maybe i would have given up on the thought of relationships and would have considered a residence in a far away monastery in china. i dont think i even told them about the best relationship i never had man!!! little do they actually know.If only mummy and my sick sista "amanda" know whats going on in my mind and my world they would be treating me with more respect 'cos if this brother aint got anything else, he's got taste.so would someone please tell them that the time is nigh and when its right i shall not disapoint them.They should therefore endaevour to treat my meal requests with regards and utmost respect....tell them o

friendship across sex

Some years ago i introduced a girl to my mother as my friend.She welcomed her and all protocols were duly observed.later that evening, after the lady had left,it was now deliberation time between mama and her husband.jamal's mother was like she wonders what the world was turning to; that how would a boy get tired of male friends and now decide to start having females as friends.she was like what kind of friendship is there between a dog and a tiger if not to kill each other.i just laughed it off and told her she was old school.i told her things like that now happen and there's nothing to it.She replied in a sarcastic manner suggesting am still yet to understand.Reminiscing on that discussion recently i made a statistics of how most of those relationships ended and am still yet to come to a conclusion.i would have used myself as an example but my experiences are few and little to make any scientific or rational conclusion/judgement.
Nevertheless,(based on personal judgement please) i believe the friendship is okay till either of two things happen.1)till one party betrays/offends the other with no good explanation.2)till the emotions of any of the parties run loose and its shown or displayed.other situations may arise but i believe with simple understanding these situations may come under control without them affecting the friendship.From later discussions with jamal's mother and some other mums it was discovered that their greatest reservation about the situation was about 2) above.The first reason would likely destroy any relationship.The second is not likely to destroy most relationship or a same sex friendship.friendship across sex takes more control of emotions than a same sex friendship and i believe thats where the complication comes in.All through the span or lifetime of the relationship more work is needed to hold things together in terms of control than in the same sex pals.Though recently am begining to see things from a different perspective and it has made me to backtrack and try to check for any truth that might exist in the words of these old women.Like i said earlier am still yet to come to a conclusion or a stand or form any theory/principle for or against this position...





The Age Factor: Love, Sex, and Friendship Across the Generations

Minding my business

I recently saw an hadith of the prophet(pbuh) in which he was reported to have said that part of being a good muslim is minding ones own business. Someone close was recently stabbed when trying to rescue a little girl from the hands of two bullies and all he got from everyone was "whats your business with the girl".I as a person was about to say same thing when i recalled this hadith and i wondered at what point is a business yours or not yours, Considering the fact that we've always been encouraged to help our fellow man in need either we know him or not.Going by an implication of these judgements he could have walked away from her and claim she's not his business and at the same time he could have tried to help like he did and get killed.How should a situation then be appraised so as to know if its your business or not.A school of thought holds the believe that any situation you were not explicitly implored to participate should be shunned and stayed away from.Some even said that it depends on your motive or intent of participation in such matters or business.i wonder if anyone has a different opinion.