heaven's ghetto

My words,thoughts and proclaimations might not be as strict as that of a religious scholar though our aims n objectives might not be far from each other.My stance and approach arose from my thought on the fairness of God in everything.Personally i think its going to be a lot unfair, though acceptable and with no complaints at all ,if at the end of the day i find myself and some of us, in the same level of paradise with the likes of prophet Moses,Abraham,Jesus and Muhamad(pbuh) and the early men that accepted faith along with them.God's justification for that if it happens, i may never know till i meet him......i wish to live a good life(according to my own definition) and i still pray and hope to make heaven.Though, I am trying my best and even if i get to put the best of effort i am imagining to support this quest, i still dont think i should be on the same plane of paradise with these set of people,if i make it at last...None of all this great prophets ever made prosperity in terms of wordly wealth their major concern like i and a lot of us do. Our aims and ways of achieving(as compared to them) them are slightly different.They chose the reward of meeting with their lord over the life of the present while i have chosen to live "the good life" here on earth and still try and make the same heaven they struggled for.Going by the kinds of lives we've both lived, would anybody think it fair that we should be given the same scores?I dont know what the opinions of great religious scholars would be but all i know is God knows best and he's the greatest,and most just of all judges. i dont want to die if am given the choice and if i die,definitely, i dont wanna burn.Lets say i cant live next door to Adam's mansion or play with the household members of Abraham if i make it,Dear lord if u can hear me am pleading, i really wont mind staying in heaven's ghetto if it has one.

in my search of knowledge

Some limit their search for knowledge at only that which is the good part and for some reasons best known to them choose to block their eyes from the knowledge of the opposite.As for me i shall look for the knowledge of good and its opposite pari passu at least concerning that subject which i have chosen to under study.I have made a solemn promise to my lord not to do anything evil or go close to it but that
did not include knowing about evil and its ways.My position might sound too extreme but if you have been where i have, you will have very little choice but to appreciate my statement and voluntarily join me without any coercion.I once lost a fight to a fellow fighter and it was painful because i did not lose to his being superior,faster or more powerful but it was because he played some tricks which were not supposed to be allowed but unfortunately were overlooked and accepted.After the tournament i went back to the training ground and my instructor told me it will be hard for me to be a champion if i do not have knowledge of those kind of tricks.he requested that i learn them,know them, practice them and afterwards i should perfect ways of stopping and neutralizing them.Even if i choose not to use them no one will ever use them to my disadvantage.hence i concluded this should also apply to all facets of my life, that for every knowledge i choose to have i must have a balanced scale of it that is its merit and demerit,its strength and weakness,its bad side and its good side.i believe that is only when i can claim to have full grasp of that knowledge.After all Studying a goat does not make me a goat.